I'm sharing one of my favorite posts from when Bodhi, my now 12 month old son, was around three months old. At this time, we're at the beach on our first vacation together and it's wild to think back to those early days. I hope you enjoy it, mama.
You are exactly where you need to be. A good scroll through Instagram led me to images of this saying...twice in about a minute. The feeds were completely different - i.e. one of my favorite yogis in California and the other a favorite podcaster from Oklahoma had posted two different neon signs with this quote. Oh, okay universe.
Allow me to back up a little bit and share why this struck me. All of a sudden, life has started to move at warp speed again in my world. For a time, Eugene and I operated in a bubble called new babyville (have you been there?). The days were surprisingly long and short at the same time. Family and friends came in and out of our home bringing baby clothes and food (thank you thank you THANK YOU). They held baby bear while we showered. They made sure our dogs had a few good belly rubs. Through halfopened eyeballs we snuggled our little man, went for walks and lattes around the ‘hood. And while we both slowly started working from home, there was a clear separation between our bubble and the swiftly moving world outside of it.
Well, until maybe two weeks ago. Cue warp speed. I started teaching again. I started putting pen to paper on all the ideas that had come up for me over the later weeks of maternity leave. Answering emails. Cooking dinners. Daycare (tears about daycare). Long walks with the baby. Yoga practices. Vacuuming. Prepping for class. Prepping for meetings. Travel planning. Dishes. More dishes. Forgetting about the dishes. Pumping. Forgetting pumping parts. Doctor’s visits. ER visits. Dreaming. Scheming. Freaking out about how to get to those dreams. Trying to find time to meditate. To rest. OH MY GOSH. How do I fit it all in?!
You guys, why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we feel like every single box has to be checked every single day? Or that if we don’t tackle this project, this idea RIGHT now that it’s never going to come up or around again? Why do we keep fighting to do and be and give it all? And, often sacrificing sleep, rest, meditation. Am I right?
And, when we move that fast in life (and geez it just is so stressful to do that), we can’t hear what the moment is sharing with us. We don’t fully see the beauty of our often imperfectly perfect surroundings. We can’t appreciate that there is so much to experience in this moment.
“In order to best serve the moment, you have to be still long enough to hear what it is saying.” - Michael Jeffreys
So, I guess what the universe is trying to tell me is to embrace the season of life I'm in. And, what yoga has shown me is that mindfulness isn’t a buzzword, but rather a means to alleviate suffering.Living here and now releases impatience, annoyance, frustration, fear. I think a form of suffering is just moving too darn fast to realize all that you have in this moment, and that there will be time to do everything on your to-do list. It just may not happen in the succession you want it to. And, for now...for me, that’s got to be okay.
What do you want to get to today, but feel like you can't because you're taking care of your new baby or older baby or bunch of babies? Write to me and share. It will get done, I promise. Just maybe not today. <3