Last week, I ventured into Wegman’s for the first time in about a month. The grocery store is currently undergoing a floor redesign, so essentially I walked into a food filled maze. What I thought would be a quick trip turned into an 1+ hour adventure, asking employees where the gluten free bagels went & who moved the Yogi tea?
When I asked the cashier about the redesign, she seemed a little exasperated. “Oh, this is has been going on for a MONTH. And, we still have the produce section to move!” I replied with, “Well, change is a good thing.” And, the cashier said, “I know many who would not agree with you.” Hmmm, change can be a good thing, right?
The very next day, we started rearranging furniture at the Matullo abode. Specifically, we moved furniture out of what used to be my study, aka my cozy little office haven/meditation nook. Why? Because this spot, one of my favorites, is now transforming into a nursery. And, that’s wonderful, right? It’s so exciting. I’m excited. Totally.
But, in that moment, I was actually kind of sad and a little disgruntled. What about my cozy office vibes? What about that ikat rug I picked out to meditate on with my cushion? Nope. No more dedicated study. No more of this particular meditation space. Cue internal freak out, and just overall realization that big change is coming.
Oh, but wait. Change is a good thing. Didn’t I say that not 24 hours previously to that sweet Wegman’s cashier? Humph. Yes, I did.
And, you guys, I really do believe that, even when it’s hard to practice. Why am I telling you this story? To illustrate impermanence. One of the most profound lessons I’ve ever learned from yoga is that nothing is permanent, except for impermanence itself. Change is constantly swirling about us. The very breath you just took is different than the one before. The tree pose you do today may be better than yesterday, and you may fall out of it tomorrow.
We tend to attach ourselves to what is, or even the past. What happens when we choose to hold so tightly to what we know? What happens when we choose to ignore the fact that nothing is permanent? Our resistance to change actually causes the suffering, the uneasiness, the panic, even pain that we try hard to avoid.
When I think of impermanence, I think of barnacles on the side of a boat or a dock. Like them, sometimes we grip to what is known, even with the lapping of soft waves to encourage us to float into the water. Change means facing the unknown. It means facing uncertainty. And, that’s a good thing. Accepting change is accepting possibility, growth, adventure, and the ability to share stories and wisdom as we get older. I’d rather live in a way that minimizes suffering and honors new beginnings, however challenging they may be.
As for me, I’ve accepted that I can create a new meditation nook somewhere else, right? Especially, with this gift we are welcoming so very soon. What about you? What has changed for you over the past couple months? How have you accepted that change into your life?