I had the chance to step back into the studio earlier than expected, and it’s been oh so glorious. To be amongst you all, your bright and beautiful faces, to practice together, to have such a warm welcome after seven weeks away...gosh, you know how to make this new mom feel like a human again.
Since then, I’ve reflected a little bit on my headspace before going on maternity leave and now as I’m starting to dip my toes back back into life beyond the boppy (you don’t know what a boppy is?). And, it’s funny...I was pretty nervous/terrified to leave the studio/writing for a little bit. Have I shared that with you?
My thoughts before leave (in no particular order):
- Will everyone who walks through our doors still feel safe and know that they can giggle through class always?
- What if I missed scheduling out a FB post? Or a letter?
- If I’m not working on the business everyday, how will people know Yoga Dear is even here?
- Who is going to make sure the toilet paper is on the roll?
- Will I forget how to teach?
- Will my thoughts soon be consumed with a baby?
- What if it smells like feet in there...will someone open a window? Diffuse some oils?
Oh, I could go on and on. If you’ve ever started a business, organization or a club, you totally know, right? But, then I realized, oh my gosh, Leanne, just freaking let go. Stop putting so much pressure on yourself. It’s going to be fine. And, it truly has been. Our team is amazing and you guys are the best.
Now that my squirmy little Bodhi is here (and he has consumed my thoughts), there are all kinds of new pressures - Am I feeding my baby enough? Why is my body not doing what my mind says? Does the babe have the “right” sleep habits? Do the dogs feel left out (the answer is yes)? Should we invite friends to visit? But, should I have muffins ready for those friends? But, wait I need to put mascara on.
So here I am again, trying to take my own advice. How funny that I’ve made a circle, releasing one set of pressures for a new one. We all do this, right? So, we practice. Again, our practice says, LET GO. Let go of the pressure you put upon yourself. Perfection isn’t reality. Trusting your life is easier than fighting it. What pressures are you putting upon yourself or do you feel from others? How can you release them? How can you let go? Perhaps, dedicate your practice to this.
P.S. We received an outpouring of love about our Teacher Training program. Thank you so much for your interest and enthusiasm. The applications we’ve received so far are beautiful. If you have questions about the program, please reach out to me. We can grab coffee or tea and talk. I’m happy to do that!